2008-11-19, 12:56 AM
Yea, I realized I got procrastination after I read the other thread in pits of hell. I think I started getting it in gr 10, but it became serious in gr 11 when my marks are going down.
This is what I remember my life was like in gr 11 (wall of text):
Now I kinda got used to procrastination and I won't even try to stop myself when I started lurking on the internet or doing w/e. I just start doing my hwk at around 11PM-1AM. I'm still getting average marks in school (or sometimes above average, with the exception of english which is below average...)
I'm usually ok with my mark, I have no complaints, the only reason is the peaching from my parents that I have to maintain high marks.
But what changed me today is an influence from this gr 11 kid... he's kinda my "student" cause he asks me stuff about computer programming alot, and I helped him in doing his computer project. His first term mark in computer is 96 (highest in class this year), (i got 94 when i was in gr 11 last year first term, the 2nd highest mark in class. The highest mark was 95) Anyways today he told me his average was 89.6%, and he was so pissed that he was this close to get into 90. Usually when a friend tells me that, I'm gonna go like "fuucking nerd! I can barely get 80!" but this time he's different. because I'm kinda his teacher I know all his limitation, and I know that I'm above him and smarter than him. So why is someone who's below me getting higher marks than me by alot?
I find the answer today after seeing the word "procrastination" (Actually I never knew what the word means before today >.>)
The answer is because he's hard working and I'm not. And I usually don't bother with work because it's not "fun". But now that i think of it, is grinding lifelessly in maplestory "fun"? is reading posts on forums "fun" (hey isn't that just like reading articles for hwk)? is watching videos on youtube "fun"? is clicking your pen a million+ times and try to make music "fun"? is doing anything that i'm doing everyday "fun"? Yet my student is having fun though working hard. after he's done, he can play any game without the pressure of thinking that he's gonna mess up.
There is more, last year, i got the worst english ever, average mark was around 68% and I managed to get 66%. my student got the same teacher as mine last year. first thing I said to him was "you are dead". guess what he got this year? 75%, HIGHEST MARK IN CLASS!!! the average this year was 66%. That motivates me even more, this year I got the worst physics teacher ever, but to think that someone who's lower than me can get good/ok marks with crappy teachers, I want to get high in physics too.
So now I have all my motivations, I just got 1 problem, how do I stop procrastinating? I can't just stop it in 1 day... I've tried before but it failed. However now, I kinda know why I procastinate though articles I read. I still can't ditch all my online friends, a guild of 100 members and 100+ more alliance +50 buddy. and I can't just stop coming to SP either, or stop watching youtube. Any help please?
This is what I remember my life was like in gr 11 (wall of text):
Spoiler
Now I kinda got used to procrastination and I won't even try to stop myself when I started lurking on the internet or doing w/e. I just start doing my hwk at around 11PM-1AM. I'm still getting average marks in school (or sometimes above average, with the exception of english which is below average...)
I'm usually ok with my mark, I have no complaints, the only reason is the peaching from my parents that I have to maintain high marks.
But what changed me today is an influence from this gr 11 kid... he's kinda my "student" cause he asks me stuff about computer programming alot, and I helped him in doing his computer project. His first term mark in computer is 96 (highest in class this year), (i got 94 when i was in gr 11 last year first term, the 2nd highest mark in class. The highest mark was 95) Anyways today he told me his average was 89.6%, and he was so pissed that he was this close to get into 90. Usually when a friend tells me that, I'm gonna go like "fuucking nerd! I can barely get 80!" but this time he's different. because I'm kinda his teacher I know all his limitation, and I know that I'm above him and smarter than him. So why is someone who's below me getting higher marks than me by alot?
I find the answer today after seeing the word "procrastination" (Actually I never knew what the word means before today >.>)
The answer is because he's hard working and I'm not. And I usually don't bother with work because it's not "fun". But now that i think of it, is grinding lifelessly in maplestory "fun"? is reading posts on forums "fun" (hey isn't that just like reading articles for hwk)? is watching videos on youtube "fun"? is clicking your pen a million+ times and try to make music "fun"? is doing anything that i'm doing everyday "fun"? Yet my student is having fun though working hard. after he's done, he can play any game without the pressure of thinking that he's gonna mess up.
There is more, last year, i got the worst english ever, average mark was around 68% and I managed to get 66%. my student got the same teacher as mine last year. first thing I said to him was "you are dead". guess what he got this year? 75%, HIGHEST MARK IN CLASS!!! the average this year was 66%. That motivates me even more, this year I got the worst physics teacher ever, but to think that someone who's lower than me can get good/ok marks with crappy teachers, I want to get high in physics too.
So now I have all my motivations, I just got 1 problem, how do I stop procrastinating? I can't just stop it in 1 day... I've tried before but it failed. However now, I kinda know why I procastinate though articles I read. I still can't ditch all my online friends, a guild of 100 members and 100+ more alliance +50 buddy. and I can't just stop coming to SP either, or stop watching youtube. Any help please?

