2010-06-25, 09:46 PM
I can't shake it.
When I look in the mirror, I just want to kill me. Not like suicide, but literally beat another body of me to death.
When I think of myself, I want to puke.
When I think of the way I live and everything I do or have done in the past makes me want to puke and beat myself up (like I said before).
When I see my own posts on these forums, I just want to puke and bash my skull open.
I absolutely hate every fiber of my being and I don't think I can continue living this way and be healthy. I'm tired of living and I wish I could just be another person or start over entirely. I can't stand who I am and I think I'm starting to go insane over the hate.
When I look in the mirror, I just want to kill me. Not like suicide, but literally beat another body of me to death.
When I think of myself, I want to puke.
When I think of the way I live and everything I do or have done in the past makes me want to puke and beat myself up (like I said before).
When I see my own posts on these forums, I just want to puke and bash my skull open.
I absolutely hate every fiber of my being and I don't think I can continue living this way and be healthy. I'm tired of living and I wish I could just be another person or start over entirely. I can't stand who I am and I think I'm starting to go insane over the hate.