2009-03-25, 05:26 PM
life is long and dragged out, unless you die in extreme childhood. and some say living is insufferable, so isn't dying preferable?
i say terminal illness because i am too much of a coward to volunteer myself to death by torture. also because you can't guarantee you will die eventually, your torturers may want to keep you alive. if that happened, i guess i would look for death everywhere. but the important thing is hopefully that i would be a witness to other people who knew what i was going through and maybe their lives could change.
you cannot influence others' lives if you die quickly, right?
on remembering: people forget and chase after other things while they are still alive, everyone is selfish. they will not remember us forever. humans do not have infinite memories. none of us remember all the humans that died and wished desperately to be remembered. likewise we will also be forgotten.
i am still a coward, and still prefer terminal illness.
i say terminal illness because i am too much of a coward to volunteer myself to death by torture. also because you can't guarantee you will die eventually, your torturers may want to keep you alive. if that happened, i guess i would look for death everywhere. but the important thing is hopefully that i would be a witness to other people who knew what i was going through and maybe their lives could change.
you cannot influence others' lives if you die quickly, right?
on remembering: people forget and chase after other things while they are still alive, everyone is selfish. they will not remember us forever. humans do not have infinite memories. none of us remember all the humans that died and wished desperately to be remembered. likewise we will also be forgotten.
i am still a coward, and still prefer terminal illness.