How was your day?

Well kind of slowly starting to get over him. #emotionalproblems. Sure I won't be talking to him ever again or meet up with him when he comes visit next semester but sometimes things are like that. Realized I was doing gym wrong. I used to do all muscles I do every other day. Been told by a guy I met on jack'd that I need to break down the muscles into groups and look for exercises on YouTube for form. I'm kind of shy at the gym but I guess I need to step up my game. I don't want to give up on my goal. Pimples on my face are still not going the pineapple away. I personally think it's because of watching adult videos, but I mean every guy does that.. Another possibility is that I haven't done anything with anyone (I don't want to get more specific I don't want to get an infraction) in almost seven months and I mean the thirst is real. Another possibility is just me being moody and stressed at times. My brother is still a prick. I thought me being away for two years would help him mature but he's still the same selfish douchey thing.
Been back in Canada for almost two weeks now and haven't really done much. 21 now. Also happy birthday to all my girls on sp I didn't wish happy birthday too.
One thing that I am considering is whether or not me being abstinent is worth it. People who know me before know I enjoyed being wild to some extent. I just don't want to be wild again, I feel like it makes me feel like I'm not worth having a relationship with. In Chinese there's a 成語 called 寧缺毋濫(better alone than not well accompanied? I can't English anymore French is coming in)and I feel like I should do that
My post is probably as messy as my mind right now. Sorry:/

Have a great day guys.