2013-07-16, 11:59 AM
Throes Wrote:You are surprised that I am insecure because I choose not to show that side of my personality to you. In reality I am flat-chested and have crooked teeth. My hair is unruly and uncooperative. I chose to pursue a degree in animation, yet I have done nothing with that degree. I was recently asked to step down from my position managing the largest store in my company and take on a smaller store instead. Insecurity abounds, my friend. And until I can get over it and love me for me we will be stuck at square one and nothing will change.
As someone who finds you incredibly attractive, I was madly smitten with you when I started getting to know you. Even when it was known that you were married, the irc still seemed to gravitate around you when you shared topics about your life. Whatever you lack in comparison to the SF Super Fitness Tanning Master Race you make up for spades in personality. And even if the 'Throes' that I know may have only been her stopping by on her good days, whatever good you showed was more than good enough for me. I think that the animation degree is great to have even though you may not be in direct use of it at the moment. Ignoring context, the best application of a degree is to clean a wet counter or for emergency toilet paper. In context, we're looking at horrible employment stats and a niche economy that demands more value from candidates than what a single piece of paper could produce on its own. If you regret not being an animator, then that's an entirely different issue. However in the long run, a degree tends to not be a good indicator for the final destination that people end up in their long-term positions in life. It's simply a part of their journey in getting there.
You should definitely work on loving yourself because you are lovely. It's just unfortunate that your ex-husband couldn't continue valuing the good points in the relationship over the bad & your employer chose to ignore the 'you' that you bring on a daily basis over some corporate kool-aid criteria that they are sipping in stockholder land. Just because you are being under valued doesn't mean that you need to believe that you are someone who deserves to be under valued. If it is possible to work on handling trust without compromising your own value for your own safety then we should move towards that end of the spectrum. Not in the sense that you trust people because you are something that shouldn't be protected, but in the sense that there is a someone that you feel protected around so that you don't have as much of a compulsion to throw a relationship barrier between you two. Surprisingly you aren't perfect. You have some issues, but you are a complete person who is completely charming. And the good you possess is something that is ageless and worth a commitment at the altar.