2013-02-10, 01:37 AM
Warning: Life story ahead
I have a problem with eating and being paranoid about what I eat. As I've mentioned before I used to be obese--my eating habits from then are just now barely starting to go away, but they're still there, and I feel like they're still controlling me.
Back when I first lost a lot of weight in 2009 (240-180lbs in I think 5-6 months) I used to be able to stick to a diet perfectly, but that's probably because I lost so much weight so fast. Since then, I haven't been able to go two days without eating onion rings.
I've gone through another weight loss spurt after that, when I went from 183 to 158 in about 5 months--I ended up gaining that all back in a few months when I started compound lifting, plus a fair bit of muscle. Last I weighed myself I was at 185 again in December, and then I started my current cut, which has been plagued with, no surprise, a lack of adherence to an eating plan--I wasn't lying when I said I couldn't go two or three days without onion rings. Seriously, I love onion rings. I've since made it a point to stop eating onion rings every few days, but I digress. I'd assume that I'm at around 180 right now, and at my most muscular. Actually, considering that, I'm probably like 182 or 183. Who knows, I don't have a scale in my apartment...I should probably get one.
Anyway, the problem still stands that I have a terrible mindset when it comes to food. It used to be that I just felt like eating huge volumes of food at once, but now it's just that I want to eat lots of simple carbs, mostly cookies...and onion rings, and I'll eat as many volumes of that as I eat "healthy" foods. That is, I'll eat like 5+ cookies to compensate for the large quantities of meat that I eat in one sitting.
The mindset that I just described is my problem. I've had cheat meals three times this week, when I've planned for only one every two weeks. As far as workouts go, this week has been perfect for me--it's not my motivation that's the problem, it's my problem with really wanting cookies and onion rings.
I have a bad relationship with food in general. Even though I technically am, at worst, at maintenance calories this week, I feel like hitting myself just because I didn't eat at a deficit this week.
WAT DO
I have a problem with eating and being paranoid about what I eat. As I've mentioned before I used to be obese--my eating habits from then are just now barely starting to go away, but they're still there, and I feel like they're still controlling me.
Back when I first lost a lot of weight in 2009 (240-180lbs in I think 5-6 months) I used to be able to stick to a diet perfectly, but that's probably because I lost so much weight so fast. Since then, I haven't been able to go two days without eating onion rings.
I've gone through another weight loss spurt after that, when I went from 183 to 158 in about 5 months--I ended up gaining that all back in a few months when I started compound lifting, plus a fair bit of muscle. Last I weighed myself I was at 185 again in December, and then I started my current cut, which has been plagued with, no surprise, a lack of adherence to an eating plan--I wasn't lying when I said I couldn't go two or three days without onion rings. Seriously, I love onion rings. I've since made it a point to stop eating onion rings every few days, but I digress. I'd assume that I'm at around 180 right now, and at my most muscular. Actually, considering that, I'm probably like 182 or 183. Who knows, I don't have a scale in my apartment...I should probably get one.
Anyway, the problem still stands that I have a terrible mindset when it comes to food. It used to be that I just felt like eating huge volumes of food at once, but now it's just that I want to eat lots of simple carbs, mostly cookies...and onion rings, and I'll eat as many volumes of that as I eat "healthy" foods. That is, I'll eat like 5+ cookies to compensate for the large quantities of meat that I eat in one sitting.
The mindset that I just described is my problem. I've had cheat meals three times this week, when I've planned for only one every two weeks. As far as workouts go, this week has been perfect for me--it's not my motivation that's the problem, it's my problem with really wanting cookies and onion rings.
I have a bad relationship with food in general. Even though I technically am, at worst, at maintenance calories this week, I feel like hitting myself just because I didn't eat at a deficit this week.
WAT DO